As I started typing today, I hesitated so many a times,anxiety filling up within, typing and deleting, typing,typing, deleting and typing again, trying to look for those perfect words. Various thoughts rushed through my mind for the right words as I have never done this before. The memory of encouraging words and vibrant smile of my primary school English teacher every time I did well in composition proved to form part of the backbone for this journey I have started.
He told me I could make a good journalist and there he planted a seed in my life that I can say is now sprouting despite years of no signs of germination. I hope I do not disappoint him..myself.What am I saying, this in itself is a great achievement, that I have started typing and have brought my dream into life.
For the past several years, I have been doing some soul-searching, trying to find the purpose of my life, why I was born. Well, this brought out a lot that I guess was not prepared for emotionally. I had to learn to confront my past and release all those who hurt me for me to move on with my life. I have had to forgive them and most of all forgive myself. I can say for all my life, perfection has been my goal, refusing to acknowledge that to err is human.
Mistakes from Eunice Machocho (Me) I can say were not to be heard of. I ended up beating up myself too much on so little mistakes as i looked back now. I have come to accept myself and am more peaceful within. I went ahead to cut my hair last year which was symbolic for me that I had finally found myself and looked at life so differently than I did before.
In February this year one evening after a work meeting i came to attend in Nairobi, this bulb lit in my head:to blog about hope which is Esperanza in Spanish. There is so much negativity of news in our media stations, not just Kenya. Often enough i hear my father commenting that nowadays news are the same: always bad news. I remember talk of positivism being encouraged in one of the television station at the beginning of this year when there was a discussion of news broadcast review and what changes were needed.
My dream as a result of my blogging is to see news broadcast bringing out the good in our country. Without ignoring the bad, let the media houses broadcast more stories of hope. Am yet to see the investigative stories that seem to be on the rise focusing on beautiful stories that bring hope to its viewers and listeners.
My dream is to see this replicated worldwide with each country bringing out the good in them, not for tourism, not for money, just to bring hope into other people’s lives. We would have more smiles on people’s faces, encouragement to continue with life and perhaps less suicidal incidents. This is my big dream!!
This is a piece i wrote in 2015 but finally have the courage to publish!!🙂