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The F Word – This Post Is Only For Me!

This is the hardest topic for me so far! I have had an intense struggle within my spirit about what to say. I feel scared and ready at the same time!

Ready to speak, ready to explore these feelings and find out what it’s like on the other side of this tunnel. They say curiosity killed the cat…well this cat has eternal life which is set to begin after the end of the nine lives.

They scream out “No” but I choose to push on. They get hold of my hands and try to pull me back but I loosen myself from their grip and forge forward. I choose the light of my Saviour above my emotions!

They say I am not safe and cannot trust anyone but I keep walking. They say I will be judged and no one will truly understand me. I hear them scream louder but I choose to focus on the light I see ahead of me. The louder they scream the greater the indication that they are actually losing the battle…beware of the kicks of a dying horse!!

The light is stronger and the path is becoming clearer. The more I move forward, the less I hear them. The force ahead of me seems to deem down the voices behind me. And after all the struggle, I finally get to the end of the tunnel. And this is what I see.

“It is much more agreeable to offend and later ask for forgiveness than to be offended and later grant forgiveness” a statement by the Philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche

I look at the statement and start evaluating within myself all the times I have been offended and have had to forgive and the times I offended someone and had to offer them forgiveness. I will be honest with myself when I say that I agree with the Philosopher.

Why is the former so difficult? Why do I feel so justified to stay angry and bitter and sometimes revengeful? How come it has taken me so long to forgive those I once considered loved ones?…are questions that I ponder through.

Jesus himself evidenced this in the Parable of the Unmerciful Servant that my choice is very much a reality. It caught my attention that Peter was the one who prompted this with a question.

His choice of brother or sister to me indicates that conflicts are not to be considered so foreign in believers’ fellowships, especially their own families. He actually went to Jesus with the number of times he thought was reasonable to forgive them. Curiously enough, his question focuses on how many times the brother or sister sins against him and not the vice versa.

The beauty of this parable to me was the way Jesus responds to Peter. He does not start with a rebuke or judgemental comment on how Peter should know better. Even despite the conclusion of the parable bearing great consequences on him and the rest of us.

This parable told me that am indeed human. A human with selfish intentions. A human who only wants to take the path of personal gain. If not, then there would not be so much talk of loving each other and finding our purpose to benefit the rest of humanity.

One thing that helped me through this tunnel is not to bother looking for justifications for my hardened heart but rather first accept that I can actually be unforgiving to those who wronged me…am only human!

Just because it is written in the Bible and am a believer does not mean I automatically become so perfect. Even more, I personally would want to do the opposite…at least Paul shares the same sentiments!!!

Take a few seconds and picture yourself peeling off a ripe tangerine or banana. Do you see the color? Can you smell the sweetness? That is how I felt when I got to the end of this tunnel. A person who was already so ripe inside but the hard coverings (unforgiving heart, anger, bitterness, negativity) served as a great hindrance to my full potential….my full purpose!

It took me time and sometimes I still do cringe at the mention of a name. But one thing is for sure, that I am committed to running this race. And if that means doing what the Good Book says, then let it be so.

If it means that I have to confess the places I feel that my human nature cannot make it, then I should allow God’s grace and mercy to take their place…this I must confess, is in most cases more than I can actually count.

Today, I have no pictures in this post. As I had mentioned, this post is only for meπŸ˜‰. I do not need pictures to remind me of where I have come from. All I need to do is press on the rewind button and a movie series will be set before me!

My commitment to my Heavenly Father is to tap into the power of the Helper that was sent to me as I await my Saviour’s return. To ask Him daily what I need to do to please my Creator..make Him smile!

And not only acknowledge that Grace and Mercy is available but allow them to work in me. To allow them to remind me that I am not perfect and I will never be…the word to focus here is “allow”. I have heard of these words over and over again but I needed to let them into the deepest insides of me.

I needed the reminder not to be too hard on myself on this perfection business. Reminder that I have failed before and will fail again and again. And then accept that there is hope for me. Hope that has been there for over two thousand years!! 😘😘Love this!! May I always hear this song!

I will conclude this piece by saying the Grace. And now, “May the Grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the Love of God and the Fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with us now and forever more! Amen!”πŸ˜‡



Has Your Heart Ever Flooded..Is There Hope?

Last week in this country, we observed several areas experiencing heavy rainfall as predicted by the Kenya Meteorological Department. This led to flooding that destroyed property and loss of lives.

My sincere condolences goes to the family of the bereaved during this time and I pray for grace and restoration for those that lost their property.

Even as the heavy rains fall on our land, I think of the times our lives have felt flooded by life experiences. Just like the water filling those houses, you feel suffocated by the experiences in your life.

Just like the vehicles getting crushed by the weakened trees, you also feel the burden of the previously strong anchors in your life that are now weighing you down. Just like the property in the homes getting carried away, you also feel helplessly swayed by every painful occurrence in your life.

Rains are normally welcomed by those practising farming as they are glad that their efforts in planting will bear much fruit during harvest. Without the water, most farmers incur great losses and that is when we hear of increased food importation in the country.

However, when this same eagerly awaited season arrives and the water is too much, then such losses are experienced as a country…yeah a double edge sword indeed!

When the trials in our lives are too much for us to bear, we tend to hear of suicidal incidents, family members killing one another, adultery, too much debt financing, some resorting to sorcery and witchcraft, some to drug abuse, all in an effort to find solutions to their flooded lives.

Is there a way as a country we could have avoided the losses? If yes, why haven’t we? Are there other countries in the world we can emulate in such related disaster management?

Before we can point our fingers to the Government, what about our own personal lives? For the current “flood” in your life, was there a small chance the damage could have been avoided? Is there a possibility that you could have made that decision differently?

Back to our country, now that lives and property were destroyed, how can we improve our infrastructure to be better prepared for such a calamity? Some depend on us as citizens during our property investment decisions with regards to location.

In the same way in our personal lives, we may need to learn from other people’s experiences and how else if we do not seek help? Aren’t there people you know or heard of that have gone through the same or can offer advise on your issue? If not, may God guide us to people that can hold our hands through this journey of life.

1 Corinthians:10:13
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Did you notice that even as the houses were filled up with water, the water actually found a way out? The water cannot last forever in that house no matter how high of a level it may have reached. If it found a way in, then there is a way out!! I love this! Am actually preaching to myself. If no one gets this, at least I have 😊

I feel it is time that I express my deep gratitude to those that stood by me when my own heart felt flooded. To those who moved closer to ensure that I did not drown or get carried away, despite not having the full details at times.

I needed to come to a place where I would not allow pride to prevent me from seeking help. I needed to find people that I could open up to and would not laugh at me, judge me or run away but rather hold my hand.

I deeply bless God for I found such people! I must confess I was in a really dark place! Did I just say “I was”? Didn’t think I could ever say that. I do not know about you, but during my flooded season, it didn’t seem the water would ever clear away.

“How many have you heard of that die because of troubles/worries unless they were killed or killed themselves?” is the voice I hear right now of what my mother once asked me. “For how long have I heard of people complaining of troubles yet they have grown to old age?”, I later thought to myself.

Recently, I shared with her how it felt like am now out of a bottle and my eyes see much further than they used to.

I am moved to recall this common quote used in times of adversity, What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger. This quote was originally used by the German philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche in his book, Twilight of the Idols (1888). And for the history lovers, you will note it was quoted as a motto by the Nazis in the Hitler youth training centers in the 1920s.

With that in mind,I write this post as an encouragement to those troubled by the worries of this world, no matter how big or small they may seem.

I am writing to remind all of us of 1Corinthians 10:13 stated above. As you read this verse, may it be the last of my words and the beginning of God’s comfort and guidance to you. I hand over to you Lord from here!